In Other Words

Curve Ball

So, of course, nothing happened last night. That's the nature of the beast. When you expect life to treat you one way, it can't help but gniffle into its fist and treat you completely differently.

Not that I mind, after all life wouldn't be any fun if it were predictable (ok, it wouldn't be any fun for me, I have no idea about how you guys feel about it.)

Instead it was a relatively boring evening, where we did get a little bit of champagne for walking backwards and forwards once, so it wasn't all bad. Met a model there who used to be in Singapore when I was there. She is studying here now, so it was kind of fun to catch up.

For the rest it was mainly waiting, smoking cigarettes and looking at new models without any experience acting nervous as hell (there were about twenty five models or so in the room and at least three or four of them had never ever appeared in a 'show' of any kind before, so they were almost shitting themselves. It made me feel so old.)

The audience mainly consisted of friends and family of the new models. Though I imagine there might have been the occasional client among the audience. It was basically an amateuristic affair, dressed up with red bull and champagne.

Still, I didn't have anything better to do on my Tuesday night, with Banana Super Hero girl off teaching and I can always hope that the exposure reaps some sort of benefit.

Not that I'm counting on it. I think my modeling days are pretty much over and I need to accept that as fact. Unless i get my ass to somewhere bigger, I'm going to grow to look less and less like my pictures and less and less likely to actually land some more work.

The only thing regrettable about that is the potential money.

For the rest things haven't changed much. Still don't have a second part time job, though my first job has expanded slightly. I'm now helping edit texts for future products that the company wants to sell. Something slightly more up my alley, I believe. All I've got to do now is make sure that more of the work keeps coming my way. Then I'll feel a little happier and a little more secure in my job.

My posts have become very mundane, off late, haven't they? I guess that's because I need to spend so much time concentrating on the mundane. If things go well I'll soon be expounding about more lofty topics, so stay tuned.

posted by Symbol @ 6.4.05